| DEC.24TH -- 4am in the mornin'
i just found out your leaving..
& i already cant stop crying..
it all happened in such a sudden..i just can't take it
i don't know how to carry on without *you*, my bestbest friend..
you've always been there when i needed you,
you've always been patient and listened to every single word i say when im depressed even though i keep repeating myself,
you've always cared about the way i felt more than anyone else,
for the past seven years~
now, tell me how am i going to carry on & walk this tough path i always have ahead of me all alone?
who am i going to tell everything to? who am i going to cry like crazy to? who am i going to repeat myself 24/7 to?
...i really don't know what to do without you*
BECAUSE...
for the past seven years.. we went through so much together, so much that only we would know what our friendship is like, from taking you away from others, then being best friends, walking to & from school together, mentos-ing together, buying a whole load of junk food & just sit on the church steps for hours, feeling sorry for the old woman & buying loads of oranges from her all the time, expired menthol chocolates for birthday?, watching me fall on the hospital shortcut thing, scribbling our names with a cutter on our desks at the end of primary, the same feelings we had for other ppl, valentines chocolates, crying together for some stupid feeling, flute-ing together because we though it looked pretty, then to high school, meeting others, we still stayed as besties, obesseion with sticker photos and cards, jems & the different people we got close to as time passed, swimming together at the usrc, getting bittin by mozzies together, fighting over stupid things, always knowing we'll make up though simply because you are and will always be my bestbestfriend, trick-o-treating together, shopping at mango sales together, wandering around festies doing nothing, writing our names on the white blocks, watching every single movie that came out, netball-ing all the time, spending hours standing in the streets deciding where to go next, going to all the lion rocks together, deciding what to wear a week before causal day, trying so hard to find as much red things as possible when it comes to gala--always seems to be red halters thou, dancing in evening of music and dance together, the dance rehersals, pizzas on saturdays, winning it once? screaming our heads off, all the camps we've been to, p6--halloween thing, yr7--just remember it sucked, yr9--it was fab as far as i can remember, the cup noodle thing in yr7 & not liking *her* straight after that, getting over all the pix cause we're so broke, and moved on to cameras and taking millions of pix, caring about every single detail of how we look in the pix, then to not caring as much?, being in the same textiles and rs class finally when yr10 came--chilling 24/7, finding out things together that was totally shocking, all of us just sitting together and bursting out to tears telling each other how official we are, telling you how i felt about us--though you never took it as something that serious,, sneaking out all the time, staying out at night like we're homeless-- doing nothiing, spending the night at clearwater bay beach, buying all the junk before in 7/11, running across the sand at 2am in the morning, lying on one towel and freezing to death, then watching the sunset together the next morning and taking pictures of it, being obessed with how pretty the sky looks like from time to time, fighting for soo damn long then randomly making up because we simply know we are going to anyway, crying over the phone telling you how upset i am about our friendship, shamshuipo-ing together, walking for hours to find 3 thingss, shopping together recently- just you and me, that was the best day ever =), buying the same things but only in different colour, screaming at each other over nothing, borrowing each others clothes and not swapping back till forever, shopping for make-up together, putting on make-up together, having puffy hair together for months, being crazy over some black pins i bought in china??, deciding for an hour that we're finally gonna do our hair, then sitting in the salon for more than 4 hours doing so, having to put up with the smell, piggin' out in 7/11 afterwards when we seemed to be going to a party,
just basically spending time with you--my bestbest friend, laughing together, bitching together, crying together, gettin annoyed together, being gay together, doing *everything* together..all 'our' memories*
and i just wish i will have more & more to write about in the future.. wish that i can carry on with this list of things we do *together*
i truly wish you won't have to leave me here all alone, so that we can carry on doing things together, keeping our close bond and try making it even better, being bestbest friends forever*
because i know.. for a fact.. that when you leave.. things will never be the same for me, for you, for everyone else*
& i just wish you knew how much of an important person you stand in my life, your are a true friend, the one i love the most, the one i'll never forget, and it'll hurt to watch you fly away to LA and not being able to do *anything* about it..
i can't stop tearing.. because your so special.. and i know im gonna miss you too much to be true.. but at the same time i can feel that you really wanna leave.. when i called you 2 hours ago and couldnt stop crying.. when i called you 2 weeks ago and couldnt stop crying.. did you feel anything at all? or did our friendship fade out too much for the past 2 years, that the bond was no longer that strong.. and you don't feel hurt when i tell you those things about us.. the way i feel about our friendship..* and if so i just feel a lil stupid.. but i have to admit no matter how stupid it is.. even if its only me who feels this way...
*****you are the most special, important, best friend ever & i love you for always standing by my side* thank you for everything sun-mi uni! it really means a lot.. our memories.. everything we've went through with one another* thank you so much & i apprecaite all that you've done for me*****
and now.. i just wanna say* i really don't want you to leave darling.. and id do anything to make you stay, because life without you is going to be too different for me to handle, to hard if you want to put it that way* and honestly.. i really need you here with me, my bestbest friend*
but yet again.. if you still wish to leave after you see this, i'll respect your decision* & if so i wish you the best of luck in LA, hope you make some nice new friends, hope you have the best time there ever, and i hope you enjoy staying with melinda and her parents =) please take lots & lots of care*
just remember 'angela', my uni, my bestie, my sunmai, i'll always be missing you, and even if time passes and you finally feel that we're no longer bestbest friends, just remember you are and will always be my bestbest friend*
that's all i have to say for now..
i love you sunmi, my bestbest friend* mwah <3
once again, thanks for e v e r y t h i n g** xoxoxoxoxo
**it's so hard to just think that we have less than 2 weeks left of time to spend with each other.....**
<3 BBFF* sunmi x joyce |
, running into the centre screaming *good show*=), getting flowers 
from loved ones <3, (almost) salsa-ing at coyote's and last of all.. 7eleven & SENSES* 
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(& juls lookin at sth? hehe*)
